2015 Retrospection

I wrote this about a year ago…

For all of 2014 all I got from God was wait Imani, be patient Imani, I am working on it Imani…You know what I was asking for? Enough money to go on the Work and Travel Program. I had it in my 5 year plan, I prayed, fasted, and I did my part, but the money never came through…I was devastated. I cried for months and told God he was unfair, it was the first time in my life that he told me No! lol. well not yet. And it wasn’t until about October that I let it go and thanked God for telling me No and showing me that I wouldn’t die if I was ever told No. I have been told I am spoilt, I just always got what I want. How else could I have reacted. I cried like a 5 year old. And just like a child, I forgave him and we were buddies again. I just gave up on the Work and Travel thing all together. I decided to get a job locally. Because Daddy had said no before I decided I was not going to ask him for a job ever again. Lol. I tried on my own and failed miserably. I ended up working as a cashier for $150 per hour. Lame right? It could only barely buy pizza on a Friday evening.

Anyho, like an obstinate child, I went back to Daddy angrily, telling him he was unfair and I have been waiting and waiting and nothing ever happened. I mentioned my failure to land a decent job to a new found cousin and poof! I got a job at JNBS. Then on the same day I got that job, I got another call, another job, just like that . I didn’t even apply!! Haha! I worked at JNBS for a month but I left because it was a full time position and I was still a full time student. I took the second job at Sagicor working with one of their Executive Financial Advisors! Craziest boss ever! We rapped like siblings. We had fun working together. She pushed me to grow and I tried hard. I learned so many things from her, 99% unrelated to the job. She was a boss lady! During that same year – 2015 now, I applied to go on the exchange program, just out of curiosity. A wahlah! A full scholarship to travel (what I really wanted to do) and I had a blast in Canada for 4 months spending free money and I did not have to work two jobs for 6/7 days a week to get it. Just before I left, I applied for Sagicor Foundation Scholarship, I did not meet one of the criteria but I landed an interview based on my essay. A bam! I a full tuition scholarship for my final year!! Haha! So I got a job, I did not apply for, I got t o travel (free of cost), spent over a million JMD (that I did not have to lift a straw for), met some awesome people from around the world, and came home to over $150,000 in my student account – excess from other grants etc.

So my dear, our God knows how to give good gifts. Just keep the faith. My blessings are still new everyday and I am probably one of the worst kinds of Christians there are- I fornicate on a Saturday night and go to church on Sunday. So how much more will he give you good gifts???

Read up Deuteronomy 28 and Matthew 6.

Published by Faith

I am human patiently accepting myself. I am unapologetic about being wild, and untamed. I am always open to new things and I only accept good vibe and positive energies. I love people and life and the world is my playground. I love children, animals and elderly people. I write to express and understand my thoughts, feeling and behaviors. It's self therapy and a visualization tool. I am a selfish loner at times a very sensitive INTJ. I am an aspiring psychological disorders and consumer behavior researcher and practitioner, living with Bipolar 1.

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