My 2nd Resignation

 

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So at 21 years old, I have resigned twice in one year. Umm…no I am not ungrateful or lazy. I just learnt when to leave the table.

“You’ve got to learn to leave the table
When love’s no longer being served”.”

― Nina Simone

You may say, but what does a job have to do with love. Well, everything.

If you do what you love, you’ll never work a day in your life.

– Marc Anthony

I guess by now, you must realize that I am an avid quote collector. I don’t keep a journal with my favourite quotations anymore as my mom always took away my books growing up so I learnt to remember them by heart. I always have a quotation from an experienced person to help me get up when I fall (fail). Earlier this year, this one placated my distraught with my laziness;

“I choose a lazy person to do a hard job. Because a lazy person will find an easy way to do it.”

― Bill Gates

Boy Bill Gates certainly made me feel better about waiting last minute – literally the last hour to do my papers while at UWI and still manage to get an A or a B+. I just didn’t see why I should devote quality sleep and yoga time to spending hours writing a paper that could be done in 1 hour. Lol. But hey, do what works for you. Never just lift something from someone else’s life and apply it to yours. We are all different people.

All in all, this quote helped me to own my lazy. My mother always told me as a child I was lazy and I despised her for it, because I always got the job done and done well, so I just couldn’t understand why she thought I was lazy. It wasn’t until I did some introspection after studying the learning perspective in Psychology that I understood and accepted that I was indeed very lazy. Here is a snippet from a paper I submitted in my personality Psychology class:

“The Learning Perspective was originally a strictly behaviourist theory developed from the work and observations of theorist such as John Watson, B.F. Skinner, Ivan Pavlov, and Clark Hull. Historically the basis of the theory is that stimuli from the world around us act upon our primitive needs and creates a response…Learning can either be deliberate or unintentional.  Albert Bandura added a cognitive aspect to the theory as he explained that reinforcement is achieved because of our expectancies. Because we expect to gain something from doing a particular behaviour we continue to do it in the hope that we will be rewarded, The opposite is true for punishment. Also, we can be vicariously reinforced, as an individual does not need to be personally reinforced for a behaviour but through observation of others we learn that if we exhibit a particular behaviour we can expect to be punished or rewarded.” – Imani S. Maxwell, 2015

Essentially, it was this theory that helped me to understand why I underperformed in school all these years. I was chastised and criticized at home for being smart. So because I was punished for reading too much, I soon stopped reading all together…Lord knows how I managed to scrape through the formal education system and do well.

This is why I tell people I am blessed…not lucky. But blessed. As I know it was because of this promise (and the good genes I was blessed with) why I ‘made it’; [read the verse before and after for good measure]

For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

-Jeremiah 29:11

Anyhow, I close with a entreatment.

Do not give up on your dreams and goals. It’s ok to rest when you are tired, but DO NOT GIVE UP. I used an analogy to a friend last night; you can’t stop at one door, if you keep knocking and it is not opening, then move on to a next door. The right one will already be open and waiting for you. Trust me. I am yet to apply for any of the jobs I have held. Not to say that I did not have to do the regular paperwork, but I already knew I had the job. Why? Because the right people appreciated my intellect and work ethic. So now, I wait.

I implore you to learn to wait too,

 “But they that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint.”

 – Isaiah 40:31

I know that waiting is scary, if you are weak hearted and a worrier, it will be difficult task to wait. But remember who you are waiting on, not man, but the King of Kings. Well, I did say I was a Christian right. I am far from perfect but I maintain a personal relationship with my father. Finally,

He replied, “If you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mulberry tree, ‘Be uprooted and planted in the sea,’ and it will obey you.

-Luke 17:6

#Matt6vs33 #Deu28 

Still my faves! 😍😇

And yes, I do pay attention to both the blessings If I do and the curses if I don’t

 

 

 

 

 

 

Published by Faith

I am human patiently accepting myself. I am unapologetic about being wild, and untamed. I am always open to new things and I only accept good vibe and positive energies. I love people and life and the world is my playground. I love children, animals and elderly people. I write to express and understand my thoughts, feeling and behaviors. It's self therapy and a visualization tool. I am a selfish loner at times a very sensitive INTJ. I am an aspiring psychological disorders and consumer behavior researcher and practitioner, living with Bipolar 1.

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