Just let me run in peace…I have had enough human interactions to last me for a lifetime I just need my solitude now….
So originally I had started writing about how my day went yesterday. Well, in two sentences, I met a wealthy older man who wanted to “teach me a few things about life and open doors for me” Woooiiiieee!! hehe! If only you know how long I had been attracting a sugar daddy. But lo and behold, when we finally met, he was not as endearing as he was online. This brother looked at me to inform me that he does not buy women gifts, he does not give women money and neither will he buy me a pet. Hey!!! Dwl!!! you know I just ate my full at dinner and was damn well ready to leave?
I think when you get to a certain stage in life where you become wealthy you forget that you too are human and that you are dealing with someone whose shoes you were once in. lol. I was polite enough to wait until the following morning to finish him. Because I swear this brother had no idea who he was dealing with. After the meal he had the audacity to ask me for a kiss?? Now tell me? Which gentleman meets a lady for the very first time and within a few hours want to throw himself at her or because of his show of money expects her to do the same. I quite frankly almost told him to hit the streets and find himself the kind of desperate little girls he seems used to dealing with. I felt like a whore of some kind. Not a good feeling😒😒. I would’ve barfed his meal right up on him or paid for my own fucking plate. Rude!
Please mi a beg unuh. Tell mi if mi look hungry ennui because this man muss si white scwal pan mi face!! Kmft. I even had to officially tell # 12 that he should stop calling my phone because he doesnt even deserve to be called a friend. It seems I was unconsciously attracting bastards in my life. And then you wonder why we call men dogs? Like seriously? You think buying me a zinger gives you the right to have sex with me then maybe I should go and do law or become a serial killer because I will make it my life’s mission to hunt you like an animal.
Please, if you just want to get into my pants, avoid me. By all means. Por favour. I am trying my best to avoid prison cuz it nuh easy outa road.
Sighs….which brings me back to my greatest weakness. My anger…
It’s terrible. I lose control so easily. It’s consuming and I like it. I love the strength I get when I’m angry. I love the adrenaline rush, I love it.
But I hate the destruction that follows. I beg people to just leave me alone and they don’t listen. I say it calmly…I do. I laugh sometimes…But I beg those who annoy, irritate or upset me to just please avoid doing that. I’m quite patient actually. I spent 10 hours telling the same 3 people that I was tired before, during and after a hike in the Blue Mountains on Tuesday morning. And no one listened, or maybe they just didn’t give a fuck, but when I finally exploded they thought I was overreacting. hehe! lol. dwl. smfh. I need to retire to the jungle because even wild animals are more empathetic than these humans I am forced to interact with everyday. It just feels like a fucking burden I didn’t ask to bear. (yes I swear a whole lot when I am angry, and right now, I am mad as hell.)
Every turn I take, someone else is demanding my attention and my emotional energy and I am at the point where if one more person irritates me today, it might just be the straw that breaks the camel’s back..(interjects a very evil laugh☺️☺️😜)
PUBLIC SERVICE ANNOUNCEMENT: I did say I was crazy from the beginning. I love hard but like God, you don’t want to experience my wrath and to be honest I don’t want to inflict my wrath on anyone. I just want to be left alone. If it is not business, I have no desire to hold a personal conversation about anyone’s feelings and problems today. Go and find a man/woman or fuck yourselves. You just need some sex, I promise it will make all your stress disappear. Don’t call me or text me or I will tell you all to go and kill yourselves. .and there is no metaphor or sarcasm right there. Take my word.
I pray God leaves that poor whale in peace and let me run peacefully…
What part of being tired do you not understand?? Smh…