I’ve been told that the darkest part of the night
Is just before dawn
I’ve been in this dark spot for quite some time
Where are you dawn?
It just keeps getting darker
But I must be honest
It does feel like dawn is coming
I feel it in my spirit
The only place that is still warm
My heart is going cold
My brain is still too lazy and thinks I should just f this
My body is breaking under the stress daily
…
Yet still, I rise
Anger, discontent and a sense of purpose
That’s where I find my strength
In my God too, but
We’ve been fighting a lot lately
I can’t seem to grasp his idea of enough
No more than I can bear right?
Smfh
Blurry vision, headaches, pain and pressure
Weeks, none stop
Glaucoma.
Late, absenteeism, taking command
Resignation.
Broke…
Back to the family house
Dependence π·π·
I despise that word.
Ignorant family.
Noise.
Chatter and weariness.
Time to pack my bags
F knowing the end result
I’m leaving.
I wish it was forever but
I know how Jonah’s story ends
I know how Job’s story end
The 3 Hebrew boys
I know the story of Daniel
Lion’s den right?
My will won’t let me break
I wish I was coward enough to give up
But I’m dauntless
Why?
Psalms 23, 37, 91
Matthew 6:33
Deuteronomy 28
1 Peter 5:7
And I could go on…
Let’s just say, the word.
My God.
Daddy.
I don’t always like his lesson plans
Nor instruction execution
But I love the strength I garner after the training
I love the wisdom
I love the blessings
The mountains
The flights
So hey, I’ll live to fight another day.
Because I have a David spirit.
The wit of Delilah.
The faith of Job.
The courage of Abraham.
The patience of Esther.
And man, I pray like Daniel
So I will survive,
I will survive
haha.
I just sang that.
In my head of course.
Whoever sings out alone at their kitchen counter at 12:40am?
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She always says what I feel.Its like we’re sisters
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Awww π *tears* Kindred spirits maybe?
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I like how you speak the truth
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Thank you so much…
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This is truly lovely
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βΊοΈβΊοΈπ Thank you…I write from the heart
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I can tell
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