So I haven’t blogged too much lately as I’m working on recalibrating my reactive thoughts. I’ve been trying to read this book that was given to me by a ‘successful’ Jamaican while I was on exchange in Canada – 7 Habits of Highly Effective People by Stephen Covey.
Here’s a quick review from Youtube:
I haven’t managed to read past the first 5 pages and I’ve been reading since October 2015…Yeah I know. 😒
So I have all this faith yet on numerous occasions I’ve allowed my anxiety to cripple me, sometimes for days and last year for months. I know it’s the craziest thing. Because I know that I am physically and intellectual capable of achieving but, you know what fuck the but. I am capable of doing and being.
You see, I have always held this belief that our thoughts are very powerful. I have thought my way into numerous panic attacks, and thought my self out of some, I have thought financial blessings into my life and beautiful mentors….the possibilities are literally endless. If you know me I am a praying woman and I believe in my prayers and I always get what I ask for, always. Just perhaps not in my time. Nonetheless, I have utmost faith in my destiny and the power of God to align the universe in my favour.
You may have heard of the same ideology in this very popular movement or whatever you want to call it – The Law of Attraction
So all in all, I have realized that I have literally gone from one end of the spectrum to another. Why I say this is that I have always been a planner, meticulous and specific. My daily planner was my baby up until 2nd year of university.
I was given the privilege of working with a very successfully financial advisor and she always said this to me – “Imani, you need to be more patient with yourself.” ummm….So I worked on that for 2 years and Sir/Madam, I am not completely liking it. It’s like withdrawal and occasionally I have whole days that I am upset with myself about how grossly cavalier I have become with myself. Haha!
And there we go, the root of my anxiety. Constantly swinging between doing everything and doing absolutely nothing. 😄😄😄😄😄
Ok, so now I’m on the journey to finding a ‘better’ balance and focus (my number one goal this year remember)
So what can we all learn from this? I say,
Be conscious of your mindset, your approach
Be very aware of your thoughts and the words you speak over your life
And hey, of course you should be patient with yourself but try not to settle for mediocracy
Laughing terribly at myself. Haha! Life can get so hilarious.
Hardworking and lazy all at the same time. Such a beautiful paradox.
‘Smart working perhaps’ 😂😉