Running on E

Do you know why?

Why I’ve been so lost

So manic

So mf loco

Jittering like a caged Rabbit

Perpetually anxious 

Stressed af

0.00009% close to losing it 

Though I’ve only really lost once

I used to give up though 

Just give in to my anxiety

Let it overwhelm me 

And take me to bliss

A calm I only find in my mind

I like it there

It’s safe

And most important 

It’s free

I’m free

And that’s all I need 

My solitude is my religion…

😔

I’m ok with being wrongly judged 

I no longer wish to be understood 

I accept my queerness 

Divergence is my faction

Indeed I’m Erudite

But I don’t belong there

Think about the nutty professor

Alone in his laboratory 

In his peace place down under 

Or out far

Well, that’s me. 

Dris. 

God knows I need it. 

I need to feel as though I’m breathing again. 

Breathe Imani 

Breathe 

If only it were so basic

Inhalation 

Exhalation…

Meaningless to my terrified heart 

And laboring lung. 

*exhale*

Ash saved me once. 

Thus far, 

Only he understands.

And that’s why the eagle is my kindred. 

Powerful but vulnerable.