61 Days before 23

It’s exactly 61 days before my 23rd birthday. Here I am in the salon of strong, independent women I have grown to admire; Icon Salon in Papine, Kingston, Jamaica. It’s 5:40pm and I am getting my hair done. I plan to also get my nails done after. 

Today was a day of many lessons and resolutions. I feel all grown up and ready to be a successful, responsible lady and citizen of the world. These four words; successful, responsible, lady and citizen mean a whole lot more to me than the many average humans of my age. Well, at least I think so. You see success means so much more to me than having money. For me, success is freedom and peace of mind. What does this mean?

It means that the most successful version of myself should be a free woman. Free to do what I want, when I want to, how I want to and with whom I want to. Free to travel far and wide and long or short. Free to be me. Unapologetically me. Truth is, I have resolved today, Saturday, October 21, 2017 that I will no longer compromise on my needs for any living soul. I have resolved that only myself and my God knows what is best for me and what my mind, body and soul needs at any given time. I have learnt that as humans we tend to give unsolicited advice and that this advice may often just be our opinions and just that. Not every advice should be taken. Not every advice is fact. 

I have learnt that I should ask others if they would like my advice before I give it. I have learnt that I really do not need to say out loud every thought I think about others and I do not need to share all my opinions. 

I have always known that I may not always be right but I just thought I should always voice my opinion anyway. Well enough of that. 

I have learnt that no one will take are of you like you will/can take care of you. And someone wishing that they could give you the things you want and need means nothing unless they actually give it to you or at least try their very best to. 

I have learnt that some people will ask you to accept from them less than you currently give yourself and I personally do not believe that person respects or values you. You see love sets people free. It’s not love if you feel trapped. It’s not love if you don’t feel safe. It’s not love if you don’t feel secure. It’s not love if you don’t have peace of mind. It’s not love if you don’t feel free. 

~Lessons to 22 years old me~

I love you mamie šŸ˜˜šŸ˜˜šŸ˜˜. You just keep being patient and honest with yourself ā¤ļøšŸ’Ž

Chisel on faith. You’re getting there. 

#growth #patience #selflove #introspection #maninthemirror #womanhood #ladylife #Biggirlmoves #hammeronlove #innerpeace #centered #namaste #imgettingthere

Published by Faith

I am human patiently accepting myself. I am unapologetic about being wild, and untamed. I am always open to new things and I only accept good vibe and positive energies. I love people and life and the world is my playground. I love children, animals and elderly people. I write to express and understand my thoughts, feeling and behaviors. It's self therapy and a visualization tool. I am a selfish loner at times a very sensitive INTJ. I am an aspiring psychological disorders and consumer behavior researcher and practitioner, living with Bipolar 1.

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