8395 days Orbiting the Source

Happy Birthday 23

Well, outside my mother’s womb.

I guess it was nice being carried for a while.

For a tad over 200 days I was carried in loving arms

I crawled for about half that time,

Then I walked…

It wasn’t long after that I was running

And only on my 20th I started to fly.

Soaring and I don’t intend to stop.

I appreciate all aspects of my life.

The happy memories I made with my mom and dad and my siblings;

Fishing, farming, exercising, cooking, eating, camping, reading, singing and dancing,

Oh and fighting! 😄😄

And sometimes simply watching the stars until we fall asleep.

I got a few cracks along the journey no doubt,

But I always choose to dwell on the good stuff.

The happy places,

The happy memories.

Those are what I focus on.

I focus a lot on my future, the things I want to do for others

The lives I want to impact

The path I want to chart

I am happy, immensely blessed, and loved.

I am admired and appreciated by many and most importantly by myself.

I am resilient, full of life and love.

I love fiercely, an all consuming kind of love.

I have enough for me and enough to give.

I keep my own cup full.

It was only 4 years ago that I decided to start celebrating my birthday

Before, it was a burden. I was always sad and angry leading up to and on the day.

Why? Because I was an avid ‘saver’, always had money stashed away.

I love giving gifts, baking cakes and celebrating others.

And I actually expected they would return the love.

Well, it took about 15 years to learn that, it’s not who you give to that will give to you.

Even now, I still give of myself fearlessly.

It still hurts a little, knowing that the people you would want to celebrate you never does,

But hey, it is what it is.

I won’t let someone else’s selfishness change who I am.

I have found that it is those who know the feeling who tries their best to ensure no one else feels this way.

Perhaps that’s apart of why I give, who knows.

Well, I prayed for snow and a whole lot of it, and I got just that.

I had a glass of wine before breakfast 😀

I found a good human, a friend.

And I have every intention of reciprocating her kindness.

I’m getting honey garlic ribs for supper!

Now what more can a girl ask for? 😄😋❤️

I woke up with a purpose

As I do every other day.

And you know what that is,

To laugh as much I can,

To learn something new,

Do something crazy,

Do something nice for someone else,

And to chase my goals dauntlessly or not.

 

celebrating me

#ChiselingOn

#Faithinit

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Published by Faith

I am human patiently accepting myself. I am unapologetic about being wild, and untamed. I am always open to new things and I only accept good vibe and positive energies. I love people and life and the world is my playground. I love children, animals and elderly people. I write to express and understand my thoughts, feeling and behaviors. It's self therapy and a visualization tool. I am a selfish loner at times a very sensitive INTJ. I am an aspiring psychological disorders and consumer behavior researcher and practitioner, living with Bipolar 1.

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