When I’m afraid I start grappling
I do 360 spins holding onto anything that I can
I reach out
When you don’t respond,
I don’t trust you anymore
And if I don’t trust you,
We can’t be friends.
When I’m afraid of something
It’s usually the thing I want the most
Like I’m terrified of committed relationships
Because then, I become vulnerable, open to hurt
I’m afraid of responsibility
But I absolutely love being in charge
Calling the shots
Taking care of others.
I am scared of being away from my family
My comfort zone
Where I could fart and not be judged
Where I could dress half naked and not be sexualized
Where I could be a nerd, a mom and play dress up and adventure with the kids
Where my dog cuddles with me when I’m depressed
Runs off with me when I’m full of energy and high on life!
to be continued