Well, the first few days into the New Year has seen a lot of changes for me and I am excited and a little scared all at the same time. But mostly happy and excited. I cannot stress enough how immensely blessed I am. I have been blessed with so much ‘newness’, it is amazing.
I was terribly heartbroken to find that the people I have called my friends since high school abandoned me as soon as I left Jamaica. I mean I didn’t even board my flight yet. Haha. That’s why I don’t do ride or dies. Human love is so fickle. They love you as much as you stay in their little box with them and let us not get into selfishness. Which brings me back to why I love animals. Dogs understand love and loyalty better than humans in my experience so far. I know no one owes anyone an explanation but if I cut you off I’ll always let you know why.
Well, I have insecure attachment. I do not trust anyone to always be there. I mean, as Freud would say, I was left to my own devices many times as a child. Crying never guaranteed I would be attended to so perhaps that’s why I am quite competent in taking care of myself. Mind you, that does not mean I do not like being taken care of. As a matter of fact, it’s one of the few ways I accept love. Acts of service and physical touch are my primary love languages. Therefore, if I never make an attempt to deliberately touch you; I do not like you. Pretty straight up. You never need to guess. And I’ll probably express at some point whether or not I like you.
Well, as I sit at my desk in my new room, I shall make an effort to put semi permanent roots down in this land, this space. I will do my utmost to leave my mark and above all else to just be unapologetically me. I want to make new friends with the understanding that no one might be there all the time. No expectations.
I have officially started classes and boy am I excited. I am starting the semester off with some research methods and statistical analyses courses and it’s a good refresher and I know for sure I will enjoy my studies. I am grateful, and overjoyed.
I have been trying to reclaim my love for reading and staying active but it has been difficult. What I will be trying to do is to read live. Not sure how many others want to read but are struggling so I will be doing that. My English teacher back in high school: Dian Hamilton did realize that I like reading for an audience and I believe it would be beneficial for me and someone else out there. So it’s like a virtual book club kinda. I know I’ll enjoy it and it’s a good way to work on my self discipline and commitment issues. So stay tuned for that. I’ll likely be hosting them on my Facebook Page @Faith2040
Well, there goes my life updates. And since I am officially on my own here, I am learning budgeting, meal planning and living as cheap as possible while working on my life goals. So, I may be sharing a few tips about those things as I go along. Also, many persons have been contacting me about how I immigrated so perhaps I’ll be doing some mini series on Studying and Working Abroad. This is something I am figuring out as I go so you’ll be getting my first hand experience plus a thing or two I learnt from all the research I did.