I’m not sure if it is a contradiction so I am writing to flesh it out. To air these thoughts out and understand myself a little better.

So, ummm. My gut is saying what my head is thinking is right. I’ll take heed. My concern is how can you tell if someone you are dating is interested in you, you as a whole person and not just the physical you?

And I believe it is often quite obvious from the get go. I mean, I love sex. We’ve had this conversation numerous times. I am the kind of woman that can have a fling that was just sex and nothing more. Men do it, best believe we women do too.

The problem arises when you repeat a fling. Don’t repeat. I repeat, do not repeat. lol. Men also get emotionally attached especially when the sex was great. I will repeat if the sex wasn’t that good, because I’m sure I won’t be falling for that 🀣 I suppose this is why both sexes can have casual relationships with people they aren’t 100% into. It’s easier to walk away after the deed is done, you get bored or a better model debuts in your life.

‘Saying’ this out loud sounds bad lol. But it is what it is. If I repeat and I think I might be starting to feel things I make a clean cut. No looking back.

Well, as much as I love sex I do not want to be desired only sexually. I am smart, kind, caring, and I have opinions on macro sociocultural economical, political and medical issues. That, that is as significant as how sexually pleasing I am and the same goes for you.

This is the nature of my dissonance today August 18, 2018, @ 7:52 am.

I suppose it is high time I quit having flings. For if it is fair for me to sexualize another why can’t I too handle being sexually objectified?


Lust. That’s all it is. Lust. I have way too many images like this one πŸ‘‡πŸΎhere in my phone. Poor innocent sexy men on instagram. I sexualize you everyday πŸ™ˆπŸ˜ŸπŸ˜„

Published by Faith

I am human patiently accepting myself. I am unapologetic about being wild, and untamed. I am always open to new things and I only accept good vibe and positive energies. I love people and life and the world is my playground. I love children, animals and elderly people. I write to express and understand my thoughts, feeling and behaviors. It's self therapy and a visualization tool. I am a selfish loner at times a very sensitive INTJ. I am an aspiring psychological disorders and consumer behavior researcher and practitioner, living with Bipolar 1.

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