Sometimes I feel guilty
I feel guilty for doing nothing
Because I can do so much.
I have the intellectual capacity to
The physical capacity
What I don’t have today,
What I won’t have some days
What I fight to have most days
Is my mental capacity
My mental strength
I feel guilty for panicking when there is no obvious danger in sight
I feel guilty for locking myself away
I feel guilty for not taking calls
Ignoring text messages
I feel guilty ok.
No need to pile it on.
You know what keeps me here?
What makes me fight to stay?
She’s inside there
She’s standing there patiently accepting,
That anxiety visits unexpectedly sometimes
That depression lurks outside watching
Waiting to dig his claws in as soon as I have a moment of weakness.
Well, today I accept that I feel guilty
But I shouldn’t be
And we refuse to be going forward.
I just realized I said we,
And this time I wasn’t talking about
Anxiety, Depression, Mania and Me;
I mean all of us.
All of us warriors.
You shouldn’t feel guilty.
I love you whole. Keep on keeping on.
You are A-Mazing!!
With much love,
#dweetfraid #faithit #chiselon