Guilty

Sometimes I feel guilty

I feel guilty for doing nothing

Because I can do so much.

I have the intellectual capacity to

The physical capacity

What I don’t have today,

What I won’t have some days

What I fight to have most days

Is my mental capacity

My mental strength

I feel guilty for panicking when there is no obvious danger in sight

I feel guilty for locking myself away

I feel guilty for not taking calls

Ignoring text messages

I feel guilty ok.

No need to pile it on.

You know what keeps me here?

What makes me fight to stay?

My ambitions.

Dr. Faith

She’s inside there

She’s standing there patiently accepting,

That anxiety visits unexpectedly sometimes

That depression lurks outside watching

Waiting to dig his claws in as soon as I have a moment of weakness.

Well, today I accept that I feel guilty

But I shouldn’t be

And we refuse to be going forward.

I just realized I said we,

And this time I wasn’t talking about

Anxiety, Depression, Mania and Me;

Faith,

I mean all of us.

All of us warriors.

You shouldn’t feel guilty.

Dear Self,

I love you whole. Keep on keeping on.

Dear You,

You are A-Mazing!!

With much love,

~ Faith

#dweetfraid #faithit #chiselon

Published by Faith

I am human patiently accepting myself. I am unapologetic about being wild, and untamed. I am always open to new things and I only accept good vibe and positive energies. I love people and life and the world is my playground. I love children, animals and elderly people. I write to express and understand my thoughts, feeling and behaviors. It's self therapy and a visualization tool. I am a selfish loner at times a very sensitive INTJ. I am an aspiring psychological disorders and consumer behavior researcher and practitioner, living with Bipolar 1.

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