Yeah, you heard right, I mean read or whatever. 😄 I’m still here. Still kicking.
I have a friend of mine who would message me not to engage; (which I appreciate by the way) she would sometimes just say “Max”
And I’d say “Lav”. Then she’d respond “Just checking that you are still alive” 😄 Makes my entire day whenever I get it. I appreciate that gesture you know. I like people who can make fun of the otherwise serious things. I enjoy making fun of whatever situation I am in mentally, physically, or any other ally. It takes the edge off and I certainly love to laugh.
I am here man. Things have been steady and stable. I push through my days and I find that once I get up when the alarm sounds in the morning and do what I need to the day passes, it’s easier to take on. So if I have learnt anything in the last few days or weeks, it’s that;
1. I’m still here. And once I am, the journey continues. So when I say don’t count me out just yet, I mean it. It’s not over until it’s over.
2. Being sedated has it perks. I wake up grateful everyday and I go to bed with the same attitude. I am happy I make it through my days, I get the job done and I sleep well at nights.
3. Writing is writing is writing. I mean, I appreciate the eloquent and erudite writers out there, for me however, it’s often just about putting pen to paper and writing. And that’s ok.
So in the same breath of imploring you (dear universe) not to count me out just yet, don’t count yourself out yet either. I know our individual situations differ and you’re right; it’s easier said than done. Keep saying it anyway and do your best to make your words matter (literally). Keep on putting one leg in front of the other, walking is walking is walking.
Wave and smile at stranger, do something for someone without them asking; especially your parents and loved ones. Check in on a friend, share a funny meme (those are the best), be goofy if it makes someone laugh, hug someone (also the best) and breathe.
The universe is conspiring in our favour. Trust me. 🤗