Restrained

I fear my emotions

Expressing them I mean

I’m afraid to laugh too much

To cry

To feel anxiety

To feel sad

To feel stressed

I’m afraid to feel too much

For I’m known to lean in to such

Half hearted? Oh no

I always lean in for more.

What if I can’t stop laughing?

Or I can’t stop crying?

What if anxiety and sadness overcome me once again

Would this really be my happy time then?

So no, like Kanye’s smile

I let it rip

But I always catch myself from a potential slip.

Published by Faith

I am human patiently accepting myself. I am unapologetic about being wild, and untamed. I am always open to new things and I only accept good vibe and positive energies. I love people and life and the world is my playground. I love children, animals and elderly people. I write to express and understand my thoughts, feeling and behaviors. It's self therapy and a visualization tool. I am a selfish loner at times a very sensitive INTJ. I am an aspiring psychological disorders and consumer behavior researcher and practitioner, living with Bipolar 1.

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