Thanks for the Antidote

Grandma…

Thanks for petitioning God on my behalf.

Thanks for giving me the gift of stability and sobriety.

Thanks for the itching insoles.

Teeny says it means I’ll be travelling soon

God knows I need to move.

I fear stagnating,

I quite literally feel as though my being will shatter into a gazillion atoms and I’ll just dissipate like water…

Grandma, your rest gave me the strength to wake up and face my life and declare my dreams into existence

You gave me the antidote to antipathy towards life

I no longer fear my destiny

I own it.

I embrace it fully.

Your rest gave me the antidote to stay smoke free and sober.

I was never a drunk but I was certainly intoxicated and immobilized by fear and desperation.

I often felt as though I was struggling against the tide of my vision and the currents of my divine direction.

In your transitioning, you reminded me that I’m an excellent swimmer,

And for that “Gram-ma!”

I’m forever grateful.

Rest in Power.

Your infinite capacity for love, abundance and forgiveness lives on.

Te quiero.

Published by Faith

I am human patiently accepting myself. I am unapologetic about being wild, and untamed. I am always open to new things and I only accept good vibe and positive energies. I love people and life and the world is my playground. I love children, animals and elderly people. I write to express and understand my thoughts, feeling and behaviors. It's self therapy and a visualization tool. I am a selfish loner at times a very sensitive INTJ. I am an aspiring psychological disorders and consumer behavior researcher and practitioner, living with Bipolar 1.

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