I Don’t Hide Anymore

I hid for the last time last week

I cried for the last time in the shower

Well, lemme not be hasty haha

We all know life has a way of circling back on us

I meant to say; I won’t hide from my loved ones anymore

I’ll cry and let them sit with me.

I wasn’t comforted much as a child crying

It was a shameful act

It was coward, selfish, and totally unacceptable

Now, in this my 26th year

I’ve completely let go those notions and I now

I won’t hide and cry anymore.

I’ll weep when I’m the character in the movie I’m watching got their happy ending

I’ll bawl for the man in the book who died putting everyone else first

Son son why? You should’ve let the bastard burn

I never got over that ending “My Father Sun Sun Johnson”

Tragic. He should’ve let than man burn.

I want to feel out in the open and I want others to know they too can feel out in the open with me

Or alone sitting by me but not with me

You know what I mean?

Close enough to not be entirely alone

But not close enough to smother me

I want to feel my big feelings right out in the open and I want you to be ok with that.

Yes; you; the reader.

Feel your feelings on the outside

Published by Faith

I am human patiently accepting myself. I am unapologetic about being wild, and untamed. I am always open to new things and I only accept good vibe and positive energies. I love people and life and the world is my playground. I love children, animals and elderly people. I write to express and understand my thoughts, feeling and behaviors. It's self therapy and a visualization tool. I am a selfish loner at times a very sensitive INTJ. I am an aspiring psychological disorders and consumer behavior researcher and practitioner, living with Bipolar 1.

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