I hate it hereHere is the holeHuck’s holeDo you know Huck?Olivia Pope?The white hat?….I know, distractingAnyho, I’m not doing well but I’m still trying.I like to focus on the latter #blessed #grateful
Author Archives: Faith
Under My Skin
That’s where I wanna feel you Under my skin Dancing with my soul Atom close Love song kinda feelings
Pondering Poetry
Poetry preserves pain, ponders prejudices, personifies platitudinous passions, proving poets postulate and plant probing paradigms passively, perpetuating profound poetic prosaicisms.
Rapid Cycling – What it’s really like
Rapid Cycling is the worst part of this disorder. It’s exhausting; mentally and physically. I still haven’t quite figured out what triggers these episodes and I’m journaling to remain mindful so I can crack the code lol During rapid cycling I experience numerous mood swings from mania to depression. I get weepy, happy, angry, frustrated,Continue reading “Rapid Cycling – What it’s really like”
What I Want For My Birthday
So my birthday is coming up on the winter solstice and as is typical for me; I am introspecting a lot these days. I am very pensive about my big life goals: 1. Earn my PhD by age 30 2. Own multiple successful businesses 3. Retire on my ranch by age 40 4. Be anContinue reading “What I Want For My Birthday”
Mental Health Check in
I don’t even know how I’m doing it at this point. But best believe I am. Having a routine is very important for staying productive and excelling living with a mental illness. Today, I am happy and grateful to live in this country 🇨🇦 as it has opened the doors to opportunities for me toContinue reading “Mental Health Check in”
Liar
Model
I’m mid twenties and a model. My personal brand epitomizes the strength of a young woman with an “invisible” disability who shares her journey to self actualization while not just coping but thriving. I believe my transparency has inspired and continues to inspire others to commit to their goals regardless of their personal afflictions orContinue reading “Model”
Model
I’m mid twenties and a model. My personal brand epitomizes the strength of a young woman with an “invisible” disability who shares her journey to self actualization while not just coping but thriving. I believe my transparency has inspired and continues to inspire others to commit to their goals regardless of their personal afflictions orContinue reading “Model”
What He Should Have Said
You belong here You earned this just as much as anyone else here You are a excellent as the rest You bring value to this team You are competent in areas we are lacking and we are happy and grateful you decided to join us Instead I was told; You’re too egotistic. It’s likely yourContinue reading “What He Should Have Said”
New Moon 🌙
It is already done. That’s new mantra. I am no longer just #faithinit for too many times did that mean I was faking it. Last night I imagine was like when a snake has finished molting. The final shedding.
Live For Me
Please don’t die…live for me. I wish I could do that, live for you, you who is fighting for the the thing I am most apathetic about. Sometimes I love it, just not enough I guess…
Wear It Like the Moon
I wear my darkness like the moon I wear my darkness as though it serenades me I wear my darkness like the most expensive headdress I wear my darkness not like an armour but like the moon does Like it serves me and not the other way around
Wear It Like the Moon
I wear my darkness like the moon I wear my darkness as though it serenades me I wear my darkness like the most expensive headdress I wear my darkness not like an armour but like the moon does Like it serves me and not the other way around
POC
Person of Colour How is that not the same as calling me coloured? How is that not the same as labeling me; nigger The “little nigger baby” Honestly, I think knowledge of history has traumatized me I think the saying “ignorance is bliss” finally makes sense There is a reason why some folks are blissful…Continue reading “POC”
Reassurance
Every now and then I have a sort of revelation; like a lightbulb goes off in my head, or I’m alone musing and I Wah my finger and nod my head and say “ahhhh!” And I chuckle because some part of me knows that everyone else has probably figured that out by now but hey,Continue reading “Reassurance”
Dissociating
I’m so good at running on autopilot; Living with my VR googles on…Sometimes my eyes gloss over and it looks like I’m seeing but I really am not. Dissociating a lot lately 😟 I remember hanging out with a friend I’d met on my first stint in Canada 2015. I was manic that entire yearContinue reading “Dissociating”
A Writer Writes
Well, I’d like think of myself as a writer. Many who know me a little know that I am an aspiring many things haha. Writer, Psychologist, Adventure traveller, etc etc. I’m sure y’all have seen my audacious ‘goals’ often enough. I haven’t written in this online space for a while. As I am always frank,Continue reading “A Writer Writes”
Suicide on Paper…Again
Well, the last time I wrote a post with this title was in early 2018. I was a graduate student in my very first semester and had just been diagnosed a few months prior and if you have had experiences with psychiatry and treating mental illnesses I think we can agree that it’s a majorContinue reading “Suicide on Paper…Again”
How do I Stop Waiting?
Honestly, please tell me. I don’t like existing like this. I don’t like that I wait to hear from you, I don’t like that I watch my phone waiting on you to call or text. I don’t like that I exhale as though I was holding my breath when I finally hear your voice IContinue reading “How do I Stop Waiting?”
Dweet Fraid 