Every year since immigrating whenever someone asked if I missed home I’d tell them “Not yet, I lived there for 21 years. I’ve seen it all or at least most of it.” When they asked if I missed my family, I’d say “not really, we keep in touch and that’s enough for me.” Well, it’sContinue reading “I Wanna Go Home”
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Today is One of My Bad Days
Sometimes I think wearing it on my forehead would prompt the world to be a little kinder, a little more gentle, a little more loving…I don’t know. Today is one of my bad days; living with #bipolar disorder 1 can be a living nightmare sometimes. Over the past month I have been doing everything IContinue reading “Today is One of My Bad Days”
Travel Goals
Next year my travel goals includegoing to indigenous majority areas to immerse myself into their culture, and belief systems. As someone living with a mental illness that comes with positive symptoms (things not usually experienced by others; hallucinations, a undeniably strong connection to things that don’t talk – to others; etc) I have been encouragedContinue reading “Travel Goals”
How I explain bipolarity to a neuro-typical
This was inspired by a post I just read from another blogger with bipolar disorder. When someone who doesn’t experience mental illness or bipolar disorder specifically asks me what is it like; this is what I say; Mania I tell them that for 6 months I’m highly productive, driven, outgoing and on my game. IContinue reading “How I explain bipolarity to a neuro-typical”
I Don’t Hide Anymore
I hid for the last time last week I cried for the last time in the shower Well, lemme not be hasty haha We all know life has a way of circling back on us I meant to say; I won’t hide from my loved ones anymore I’ll cry and let them sit with me.Continue reading “I Don’t Hide Anymore”
Reclaiming My Leisure
Since August of this year I have gone back into business for myself full time and it has required being constantly on the go, always taking calls and replying to messages, keeping up with content on the social media pages and just being available all the time to my clients. I don’t like it. There.Continue reading “Reclaiming My Leisure”
B.B.A – Body Before Antipsychotics
Can we agree to stop telling people they have gained weight? Do we really think others don’t look in the mirror and know that they have been getting fatter? Do we think that they believe their clothes are shrinking and not that they are expanding? Sighs, listen; I’m so so grateful to this body forContinue reading “B.B.A – Body Before Antipsychotics”
To Die A Natural Death
That’s my current goal. To live long enough to die a natural death. It’s funny how growing up no one mentioned that one of the hardest parts of living is choosing to stay alive everyday. Choosing to stay here and breathe another breath, fight another fight. It‘s sad that suicidality is such a taboo subjectContinue reading “To Die A Natural Death”
Human Hibernation
I used to think that depression meant I didn’t get anything done, anything worthwhile that is. But that’s not true, for one, I stay alive (biggest accomplishment 😌) and according to my track record – aka my journal I stay the course of whatever it is I am working on I just slow down considerably,Continue reading “Human Hibernation”
The Hole
I hate it hereHere is the holeHuck’s holeDo you know Huck?Olivia Pope?The white hat?….I know, distractingAnyho, I’m not doing well but I’m still trying.I like to focus on the latter #blessed #grateful
Mental Health Check in
I don’t even know how I’m doing it at this point. But best believe I am. Having a routine is very important for staying productive and excelling living with a mental illness. Today, I am happy and grateful to live in this country 🇨🇦 as it has opened the doors to opportunities for me toContinue reading “Mental Health Check in”
Liar
Wear It Like the Moon
I wear my darkness like the moon I wear my darkness as though it serenades me I wear my darkness like the most expensive headdress I wear my darkness not like an armour but like the moon does Like it serves me and not the other way around
Wear It Like the Moon
I wear my darkness like the moon I wear my darkness as though it serenades me I wear my darkness like the most expensive headdress I wear my darkness not like an armour but like the moon does Like it serves me and not the other way around
Dissociating
I’m so good at running on autopilot; Living with my VR googles on…Sometimes my eyes gloss over and it looks like I’m seeing but I really am not. Dissociating a lot lately 😟 I remember hanging out with a friend I’d met on my first stint in Canada 2015. I was manic that entire yearContinue reading “Dissociating”
Suicide on Paper
Written 3 weeks ago. This was sitting in my drafts because I didn’t finish but hey, i’ll share and continue when I am inspired to. That’s what art is, you cant just create because you can create, you must be inspired to create. All my work was done through inspiration. This is why when IContinue reading “Suicide on Paper”
Dweet Fraid 